Having recently recovered from a three-day-long stomach virus, I am really appreciating food for what it is! Nourishing, energizing, and satiating. I was literally planning to return to the Weight Watchers meetings on Saturday morning when the icky stuff hit me on Friday night.
I’m still a little rusty with trying certain foods just yet, but I do know, that from here on out, no matter what, I am going to choose foods that I like and choose the ones that digest well for me. I bring the digestive thing up because sometimes I go on different benders, influenced by the vegan and gluten free chefs out there, mostly from their Instagram accounts, only to realize that certain “foodie” and “raw” foods just do not agree with me.
For example, while I feel that I caught the stomach virus from one of the sweet little girls I nanny for, the week prior, I was eating incredibly fibrous vegetables on repeat. Sometimes I get on kicks like having frozen spinach in my smoothies for breakfast and then broccoli/cauliflower quinoa bowls for lunch, and sweet potatoes for dinner, or something similar to that menu. Days later, I am wondering WHY do I feel so bloated?! Probably from all the fiber in those veggies I’ve been eating, that for me, are not easily digest-able.
You see, ever since I was a kid, my digestive tract has been slow moving. What I mean by that, is if I ate something that didn’t agree with me at breakfast, I probably wouldn’t know it until dinner time, if ya know what I mean (without being too graphic here, you get the picture?). I actually wasn’t eating solid, whole foods until about age 3, because of this digestive condition. Hard to believe, right? I have certainly made up for lost time, like 10 x over!
So, my thought of getting back into Weight Watchers came from recently feel out of control with food and having low energy. Since becoming a full time nanny this year, I’ll find myself eating a Ritz Bit here or a chocolate candy there, or a handful of gummy worms, and feel SO BAD about it. It’s crazy how busy the mind is; you wouldn’t believe my thought process when I eat one of these kid snacks. It goes something like this: will eating these make my skin break out? I am planning on exercising this afternoon, so I don’t want to feel bloated after eating those Ritz Bitz full of cheese or the sugar alcohols in the chocolate candies will slow me down, etc, etc, etc.
I need to learn how to accept what I eat and move on, and hold myself accountable for it. And the biggest thing is to not over-indulge.
I believe Weight Watchers will help me learn to eat the foods I truly love again, without feeling crazy guilty around my decisions. WW will also help reign in the appropriate portions of all foods, believe me, I can even go overboard on some homemade sweet potato wedges!
And most importantly, if successful this time with Weight Watchers, which I am confident and have faith that I will be, I know I will feel so accomplished and proud of myself. Each time I go over-board or binge, I feel so bad about myself, which has exuded in my relationships with family, friends, and especially in the dating world.
And it’s kinda cool that Oprah is on WW too!!
In deciding to join Weight Watchers again, I’m still going to pay careful attention to buying organic when it’s available, and be mindful of the ingredients. Healthy ingredients are absolutely worth higher point value.
I’ll officially start tracking this Saturday, since that is when I plan to go to my first meeting and by then I will surely be on the up and up from this lingering stomach bug 😦 I’ll be sure to keep you updated on my progress, downfalls, and all the in between!